Tuesday, September 09, 2014

Sing to Him a New Song

There has got to be something to be said about anxiety. My sibling and I have the same ones! How bazaar is that? We have compared notes and flying on small planes and performing (mainly singing was discussed) in front of people causes us to start climbing the walls (stress). Is that not weird? Some would say, “Well, everyone experiences those same feelings.” But when I am on a little plane (anything below a 737… and prop planes are the worst!) I feel like I cannot breathe. I cannot sit still and I get nauseous. It’s like my head is going to explode or something. I just want to claw the seats in front of me and run off of thing screaming! Is that the norm? With performing I feel dizzy, light headed, like I cannot breathe, my throat closes up, and I feel like I am going to lose control of bodily functions (i.e. puke, etc.). Is that the average response for everyone?

So, why do it? Well, the whole flying bit… I stick with Southwest and their big planes! I have been completely dedicated to them for 18 years! I personally feel that company and their employees are that wonderful. Regarding performances, well, I figure if I do not force myself out of my comfort zone I will never get over it. I am a trained ballerina (and overall dancer also in jazz, tap, modern/contemporary, and acrobatics). I have been cast in multiple shows, numbers, and participated in numerous competitions. I was fine once I was on stage but I struggled terribly backstage leading up to setting foot out there. November 2013, I did an acting project (24 hour theater) and did okay. No uneasiness at all! However, now I am trying singing and boy oh boy is it causing me grief! So, I have decided to train for it and attempt performances.

I am certain it is easy to say, “Oh you’ll be fine. It’s no big deal.” And on a grand scale, you would be right! I am not fighting in a war or trying to protect my life and those of the ones I love. THAT would be cause for great distress. I love reading the Psalms where David cries out to God for help and also gives Him praise! There are so many from which to choose.

1 Shout for joy in the Lord, O you righteous!
Praise befits the upright.
2Give thanks to the Lord with the lyre;
make melody to him with the harp of ten strings!
3Sing to him a new song;
play skillfully on the strings, with loud shouts.

4For the word of the Lord is upright,
and all his work is done in faithfulness.
5He loves righteousness and justice;
the earth is full of the steadfast love of the Lord.

6By the word of the Lord the heavens were made,
and by the breath of his mouth all their host.
7He gathers the waters of the sea as a heap;
he puts the deeps in storehouses.

8Let all the earth fear the Lord;
let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of him!
9For he spoke, and it came to be;
he commanded, and it stood firm.

10The Lord brings the counsel of the nations to nothing;
he frustrates the plans of the peoples.
11 The counsel of the Lord stands forever,
the plans of his heart to all generations.
12 Blessed is the nation whose God is the Lord,
the people whom he has chosen as his heritage!

13The Lord looks down from heaven;
he sees all the children of man;
14from where he sits enthroned he looks out
on all the inhabitants of the earth,
15he who fashions the hearts of them all
and observes all their deeds.
16 The king is not saved by his great army;
a warrior is not delivered by his great strength.
17 The war horse is a false hope for salvation,
and by its great might it cannot rescue.

18Behold, the eye of the Lord is on those who fear him,
on those who hope in his steadfast love,

19that he may deliver their soul from death
and keep them alive in famine.

20Our soul waits for the Lord;
he is our help and our shield.
21For our heart is glad in him,
because we trust in his holy name.
22Let your steadfast love, O Lord, be upon us,
even as we hope in you.
Psalm 33. ESV.)
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