Fast forward about 20 years and here I am again, at college. I was unable to successfully complete it the first time around but this time, failure is not an option. After I stopped auditioning for dance positions (with Disney and cruise ships), I worked jobs like: “temp” work, a hostess or server in restaurants, an administrative assistant in office settings, a cashier at a retail store, a cashier at a grocery store, and I even tried to own my own business. None of it worked out well but I am making changes. Even when I was homeschooling my children and when they were very young did I work…sometimes full time, other seasons part time. Before my kiddos were born I had two jobs (back to back…I was a clerk in a real estate office from 6:00 a.m. to 3:00 p.m. and then when home, quickly changed, and headed to a restaurant as a hostess, sometimes until closing). I had to work…it was not a to work or not to work, that is the question type deal. My resume is riddled with various jobs as I tried to figure out what would realistically fit my life.
All this to say, university is quite the challenge but having an education is worth the frustration. I love it when I have amazing, encouraging, supportive instructors/professors. Yet, I just keep my head low and muscle through the classes when I do not. It will all be worth it! I look forward to what I will be able to do for my family once I am finished and have a higher paying job! I will be able to give them and others all I wanted to for so long. Aside from God and Christ Jesus, my family and loved ones are the most important in my life! Truly, I am blessed to have them!
1 I will bless the LORD at all times;
his praise shall continually be in my mouth.
2 My soul makes its boast in the LORD;
let the humble hear and be glad.
3 Oh, magnify the LORD with me,
and let us exalt his name together!
4 I sought the LORD, and he answered me
and delivered me from all my fears.
5 Those who look to him are radiant,
and their faces shall never be ashamed.
6 This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him
and saved him out of all his troubles.
7 The angel of the LORD encamps
around those who fear him, and delivers them.
8 Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good!
Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!
9 Oh, fear the LORD, you his saints,
for those who fear him have no lack!
10 The young lions suffer want and hunger;
but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.
11 Come, O children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the LORD.
12 What man is there who desires life
and loves many days, that he may see good?
13 Keep your tongue from evil
and your lips from speaking deceit.
14 Turn away from evil and do good;
seek peace and pursue it.
15 The eyes of the LORD are toward the righteous
and his ears toward their cry.
16 The face of the LORD is against those who do evil,
to cut off the memory of them from the earth.
17 When the righteous cry for help, the LORD hears
and delivers them out of all their troubles.
18 The LORD is near to the brokenhearted
and saves the crushed in spirit.
19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
but the LORD delivers him out of them all.
20 He keeps all his bones;
not one of them is broken.
21 Affliction will slay the wicked,
and those who hate the righteous will be condemned.
22 The LORD redeems the life of his servants;
none of those who take refuge in him will be condemned.
(Psalm 34. ESV.)